Living in the Moment

I have a confession to make.....
I am really over this whole pregnancy thing. What's funny is that for as long as I can remember I have looked forward to being pregnant. Most of my life I obviously wasn't ready to actually be pregnant; but I always looked at pregnant women with admiration. They're so beautiful and they get to experience something so special. And in the end they get a beautiful new baby! What could be better?!?! But as I grew up and learned more about pregnancy and the whole labor/delivery process I began to realize that I would probably not love pregnancy as much as I once thought I would. And that is oh so very, very true.

Now, don't get me wrong. There are so many things I love about being pregnant (ask me in a few weeks and maybe I'll be able to remember what they are). But at this moment in time, being pregnant feels so overrated! I'm tired but can't sleep, uncomfortable, huge, bored, anxious and to top it all off my feet are swollen!

Now all that being said... I was looking at people's status updates on facebook and noticed something interesting. For those of you who don't know, this is where people can post on their facebook page what they are doing or how they are feeling at the time. For example, mine might say: Katie is wishing she could fall asleep. Or, Katie is wishing Bethany were here already. So, I was looking through those updates and found that many of my friends were living in anticipation just like I am.
is 14 in 46 minutes....
can't wait to get home...
doesn't want to go back to work tomorrow...
is waiting for ski season. 96 more days...
is getting excited- only 4 more days of my office job...
is FINALLY going back to Florida tomorrow morning..
is hoping the next month goes by quickly...

These are just a few examples of what I saw tonight. And it struck me how so many times we forget to enjoy the moment because we are so caught up in the future. I've waited my whole life to be pregnant but you would never know based on my current attitude.

I need an attitude check and I find it in Scripture tonight. Paul so beautifully puts it this way:
12I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13I can do everything through him who gives me strength. 14Yet it was good of you to share in my troubles. Phillipians 4: 12-14

My troubles do not even come close to Paul's. In fact I really have no current, actual troubles. Just a little discomfort that is extremely temporary. Paul knew real troubles. And yet he rejoiced. He shared his troubles with other believers and he found his strength in Christ.

So tonight, I change my attitude around. I am thankful for the gift of life that God has given me and the blessing of carrying this child. And I choose to live in this moment that God has given me and to rejoice in it! Will you rejoice with me for the gifts God has given you today?

Comments

Anonymous said…
Wow! You should submit that to the "Upper Room" publication! Excellent and thoughtful piece. Best dishes from my kitchen to yours...no, wait...best wishes and love, Laura.
July 29, 2008 at 7:00 AM
Ashlee said…
That is a beautiful reflection! We do so often live in the future or even in the past. I've been trying to learn this lesson, too!

BTW, I picked up a little gift for you last week. You don't get it until Bethany gets here, but it made me laugh! :) I'm praying for you!
July 29, 2008 at 5:03 PM
Anonymous said…
I rejoice that God gave me such a wonderful, beautiful, and insightful daughter. And I pray that Bethany will be as much of a blessing to you as you have been to me and that you will learn as much from her as I have from you.

Love,
Mom
July 29, 2008 at 8:37 PM
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