I'm Kind of Like an Alien
I wonder what Caleb thought last week when he got the package we sent him. Did he have any comprehension of what our letter meant for him? What did he think when he saw our pale skin and was told these people would be his new family? What did he think when he heard my voice singing to him in a language he doesn't know? What did our house, pool, family, etc. look like to someone who has only known the walls of his orphanage?
Do you know what I keep thinking about? I keep thinking about what it would be like if someone came and took me to a hotel where people who looked, sounded, and smelled nothing like me starting hugging me, kissing my head, and talking to me (think strange alien invasion). I imagine someone translating and saying, "This is your new family. You'll be with them forever. They love you." Then these strange people take me away from the only people I've ever been close to. They give me new clothes, keep talking to me in a way I can't understand, give me new things I've never seen before, and try and get me to eat foods I've never tasted before. And if that isn't enough, after a few days, we get on this strange vehicle that goes in the sky and we're on it for a really long time. When we arrive, everyone talks in that strange language. And there's more people hugging me and talking to me. To top it off, now most of the people don't even look like me and they're calling me by a new name. Nothing is the same and they say this is forever? I'm never going back?
I don't know about you, but if this happened to me today I would be a wreck. I am pretty sure I would cry all the time. I may warm up at times if the people are nice but it would take me a long time to be ok with things. I read a lot of adoption blogs and I must say, most of those kids are a lot more reslient than I am.
This is what is about to happen to my son. He's not even 2 yet. He's already lost his mom and dad and now he's about to lose everything familiar. You and I know that it will turn out ok and that in the long run, having a forever family is what's best. But for now, our little guy is going to have quite the transition.
So even though I am happy for our family and 100% know this is God's will, I am still sad for the losses Caleb has had and will have in the future. So, I hope you (and I) will remember as you meet Caleb in a few months that although we are overjoyed to meet him, he might not always feel the same way. And that's ok, it'll come with time.
Do you know what I keep thinking about? I keep thinking about what it would be like if someone came and took me to a hotel where people who looked, sounded, and smelled nothing like me starting hugging me, kissing my head, and talking to me (think strange alien invasion). I imagine someone translating and saying, "This is your new family. You'll be with them forever. They love you." Then these strange people take me away from the only people I've ever been close to. They give me new clothes, keep talking to me in a way I can't understand, give me new things I've never seen before, and try and get me to eat foods I've never tasted before. And if that isn't enough, after a few days, we get on this strange vehicle that goes in the sky and we're on it for a really long time. When we arrive, everyone talks in that strange language. And there's more people hugging me and talking to me. To top it off, now most of the people don't even look like me and they're calling me by a new name. Nothing is the same and they say this is forever? I'm never going back?
I don't know about you, but if this happened to me today I would be a wreck. I am pretty sure I would cry all the time. I may warm up at times if the people are nice but it would take me a long time to be ok with things. I read a lot of adoption blogs and I must say, most of those kids are a lot more reslient than I am.
This is what is about to happen to my son. He's not even 2 yet. He's already lost his mom and dad and now he's about to lose everything familiar. You and I know that it will turn out ok and that in the long run, having a forever family is what's best. But for now, our little guy is going to have quite the transition.
So even though I am happy for our family and 100% know this is God's will, I am still sad for the losses Caleb has had and will have in the future. So, I hope you (and I) will remember as you meet Caleb in a few months that although we are overjoyed to meet him, he might not always feel the same way. And that's ok, it'll come with time.
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